Abstract:On average, every 11 minutes in the United States, someone dies by suicide, and within the year 2020 alone, 45,979 individual lives were lost (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention [CDC], 2022). Within the veteran population, the adjusted rate of suicide versus non-veteran adults is 52.3% (CDC, 2022). This results in a disproportionate number of loved ones experiencing this immense loss within this population. The experiences of suicide loss survivors are beyond complicated, and each person affected shares in an unimaginably painful journey of grief that is unlike experiencing loss by a natural death. This study employs an autoethnographic approach to explore the lived experiences of survivors who have overcome the loss of a loved one dying by suicide, in hopes of translating the findings into improving the quality of life for survivors by identifying helpful organizations, resources, and support systems that contributed to their growth. The lived experiences of individuals bereaved by suicide were captured through a qualitative approach. This allowed participants to share their narratives, enabling the identification of themes of growth through semi-structured interviews. This autoethnography is broken down by chapters and walks you through a journey of growth by sharing my personal account, along with six personal narratives of other spouses who lost their loved ones to suicide. The findings highlight the themes of dimensions of posttraumatic growth, identity following loss, and fractured spirituality that emerged from the interviews, and in closing, the last chapter integrates these dimensions and explores implications, limitations, and future considerations.